~! TEARS OF MY PILLOW ~!

WHEN I LAY IN MY BED AT NIGHT I DREAM THAT I WAS DIFFERENT
I DREAM THAT I WAS THE IMAGE OF HALLE BERRY OR HAD MONEY LIKE OPRAH WINFREY.
HAD THE VOICE OF BEYONCE AND MOVES OF CHRIS BROWN HAD THE SCRIPT OF ANGELA BASSETT AND WAS NOT AFRAID TO STAND MY GROUND.
A FLOW LIKE NICKI MINAJ OR THE POWER LIKE OBAMA,
A JOB SO THAT I WAS INDEPENDENT DIDNT HAVE TO DEPEND ON MI MAMA.
I WISH I WAS THE IMAGE OF TEIARRA MARI, HER BEAUTY REFLECTS THE IMAGE OF WHO AND WHAT I WANT TO BE.
HAVING ALL THE BOYS RUN TO AND FRO TO SEE ME STRUT, SWITCH MY HIPS WALK DEM HEELS AND SWITCH MY BUTT.
OH HOW I WISH I WAS DIFFERENT.
I USE TO QUESTION MY IMAGE LOOKING IN THE MIRROW AND SEEING THAT REFLECTION
DREAMING I WAS ANOTHER BEING AND REALIZING THAT IT WAS ME THAT I WAS SEEING
OH HOW I WISH I WAS DIFFERENT
I HAVE TO PRESS ON AND SAY THIS IS ME, MY SKIN IS SILKY SMOOTH AND I AM OH SO UNIQUE.
GOD CREATED ME WITH A PLAN IN HIS HEART
AND IF THE LORD LOVES ME WHO AM I TO QUESTION THE START?
OH HOW I REALIZE THAT I AM DIFFERENT!!

Rage of Regret

As i hear nature while peering with my sight
i can feel the rage and it puts me in fright.
Knowing how you tore my heart and put my thoughts into a daze
you could see the fire in my eyes as tears raged.
I wish i could see you so you can feel the pain that youve caused me
as much as i want to see u i just cant face reality.
Although i am upset i have to admit
that when you said i love you and kissed my lips i had to vent.
I was so confused and so were u
because months before you screamed we were through.
So i want you to tell me which way you want to row
because i aint go time to be hurt once more, do you want to stay or go???

MIDNITE FANTASY BY:SHANIECE ANTOINETTE

EVERYNIGHT I GO TO SLEEP ONLI TO FIND U SLEEPING NEXT TO ME. EMBRACING ME KISSING ME AND TOUCHING ME WITH A LOVING SWEET TOUCH GENTLE AS THE MORNING BREEZE. YOUR EYES SOFT HAZLE THE SAME AS MY MAHOGANY SKIN TONE. YOUR LIPS AS SWEET AS HONEY. YOUR FACE AS FRAGILE AS A GLASS AND YOURDIGNITY AS YOUR DREAMS. EVEN IN THE ROUGHEST TIMES U SEEM TO LAST. IT REMINDS ME OF OUR LOVE, EVERLASTING STRONG AND UNIQUE. AT TIMES WE MAY FALL OUT BUT WHEN THE TIME COMES, WE CAN PICK UP THE PIECES AND COME BACK TOGETHER. LOVE, IN THE MIST OF IT ALL WILL FIND US ONCE MORE. I FEEL SO STRONG ABOUT U BECAUSE OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL WHITE HARVEST. WHEN U SMILE MY ENTIRE WOULD COLLAPSES. AT TIMES WHEN YOU'RE NOT WITH ME MI WORLD CRUMBLES DOWN BUT WHEN I HAVE U BY MY SIDE I FEEL LIKE NOTHING IN THE WORLD WILL EVER HURT ME.

WELCOME TO MY LIFE!

AS TIME GOES BY I START TO THINK MORE AND MORE ABOUT MY LIFE. I WONDER Y I AM THE WAY THAT I AM? SOMETIMES I CAN MAKE A LITTLE SMIRK BUT I CAN NEVER SMILE. IM SAD AND MAD ALL THE TIME AND PEOPLE DO WONDER ABOUT ME. I FEEL LIKE I AM ALL ALONE IN THIS WORLD AND WITHOUT GOD IN MY LIFE I WOULD BE TOTALLY MESSED UP. PEOPLE ALWAYS WANT TO KNOW Y U DONT TALK TO ME OR Y DONT YOU EVER SMILE? I HAVE NO REASON TO. PEOPLE HAVE DESTROYED MY HAPPINESS. THE MORE I THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING I HAVE BEEN THRU THE MORE I CRY. I JUSS WISH SOMEONE COULD FEEL MY PAIN. FEEL WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE ALONE. YOU WANT ME TO BE HAPPY BUT DONT WANT TO MAKE IT HAPPEN BY HELPING ME BUT ITS FINE BECAUSE I WILL REMAIN THE WAY I AM UNTIL IT COMES IN MY SPIRIT TO CHANGE. I AM SHANIECE ANTOINTTE AND DAMMIT IMMA B SHANIECE ANTOINETTE REGARDLESS.

SO WELCOME TO MY LIFE, THE REAL SHANIECE ANTOINETTE!